A NEW CANVASS: You're Only A Freshie Once

UP DILIMAN GREW ON ME

It's been so long since I wrote my last blog, I usually have the time to update this but recently things just got so busy and hectic. Well, here I am trying to make up for lost time.

I'm in college now and things are no different than high school at first glance but actually they are. More freedom, more fun and more serious. I get the feeling that this will yet again be the start of a new journey meaningful. 

First week was definitely a relief. Cheers to my professors. I recall that those first few days in college were the adjustment periods of everybody and most importantly it was a blank slate for everyone. This white wall is my symbol of moving forward, meeting new people, building new relationships and creating new expectations. We all go by the belief that the world is continually changing and so do we, and we change with it most of the time we change for it. 

College So, what can I say that makes this write up different from the rest. Let's start with the thought - Small differences matter in the bigger scope of things. 

The Carousel Never Stops. I look at myself right now and see a reflection of my experiences- both the good ones and the bad. I see a girl who was motivated to do everything as best as she could, a girl striving to be better and greater all the time, a girl who has set no limits for herself ... but also I see a girl whose trying not to be broken by expectations, expectations form others and most especially from herself, a girl who took the risky chance of running away from the familiar eyes, a girl who does not want to be judged by the new things she wants to experience. So I am here writing and letting it all out because as much as there are things that I should not be and should not feel .... THIS IS THE TRUTH. I do not want to shy away from this because this is me, and this is the personality that I show to others. This is my key to building new relationships - the truth. 

Pull it together. Make ends meet. Do not ever stop.

Moving forward in life is a big step. It's never been about forgetting the past, it's about learning from the past and improving yourself in the future. It's not about letting go, it's about holding on to those lessons and making those mistakes count by changing those wrong decisions. It's not about chaining people who've hurt you, it's about freeing them from the burden of the pain. Picture yourself at dawn holding a butterfly in your hand and at the first strike of light, that butterfly flies away, turning back I thought that butterfly was gone, but it did not ... it came back and scooted in between your nose, you do not want to smack it, you only try to shake it off but it would not budge. That's the thing about the important people in your past, you try to shake'em off but they would not budge, they will come for you in times that you do not expect them the same way that they will leave you when something more beautiful comes their way . It's not the kind of painful leaving, it's the happy kind, because somewhere along the way you know that they have to grow too. 

Nobody is really left behind when other people leave, it's just a sign that you have to leave right for you to live. It's a chance to grow more and everybody should take it. I did. 

UNFORGETTABLE MOMENTS TO TREASURE ....

I never really thought that I'd be really close to them but hey sure did grow on me. M-5 Block is truly the best and I'm thankful that I got the chance to spend my first five months in making up wonderful memories with them. New Friendships were build and I do hope this bond will last forever. I can never can tell the future and what will remain of our friendship in the years to come but one thing I'm certain is that they are you'll always hold a special place in my heart for being the first people who saw through me . For being the people who I could laugh out loud with and cry my heart out too. 

The choice to join the council was never really about being afraid to lead or not having the time to dedicate or commit because it really was more on accepting that I can not escape that feeling in me that thriving leading is really what I want to do with all my heart. I want to do something that can actually impact other people's lives. Plain and Simple is I do not function well without extracurricular endeavors. I know that it may seem as a very tiring job, well it is, but it's worth it. It became important to me in a way that I can not imagine myself living in Kalayaan Residence Hall and council them not being with people. 

One of the most important things to have in college is having 'your people'. Someone who can bother you all the time, someone who you go to for comfort, someone who will talk to you for hours and listen to you all the time when you did, someone who'll spend time with you and not notice the time and all

Things in life go very fast and we should learn to stop for a moment and appreciate the things that we do have. 

We can indeed learn a lot by removing ourselves from the chronological march of time, and see ourselves as an infinite but evolving whole (Cerundulo, Janine)